it’s all practice. i’m practicing positivity. i’m practicing loving myself. i’m practicing manifesting. i’m practicing restructuring my perspective. i’m practicing my faith. i’m practicing accepting defeat. i’m practicing changing lanes. i’m practicing leveling up. i’m practicing everything. literally everything.
everything is changing. i’m keeping myself stable while everything is changing around me, which is also changing me. i keep trying to hold onto who i thought i was or should be…but everything that’s been occurring has been changing me. growing* me in ways that are painful and necessary! i’m learning to let go of control and to handle more emotions than i thought possible. i’m beating obstacles in my way. like every single freaking one!
i’m constantly accepting myself and attempting to give myself much more grace because i definitely deserve. plus, i’m out here giving everyone else a million+ chances so it’s about time that i give myself the same, if not more. but that’s still something i’m practicing, lol. remember when i said i was going to go on a positive kick and quit complaining cold turkey? i think i did it for like 3-4 weeks and life was SWELL! but thennnnnn a bunch of life happened back to back to back and i had to get really real with myself. nadia isn’t perfect and never will be, BUT she is capable of accepting when she’s had enough, when she needs a break, when she needs to celebrate, etc. (idk why the third person came out, but anyways) basically, i needed to give myself more agency and control over my own damn life. i was too concerned with making everything some version of perfect that i never stopped to ask myself wth i even wanted. i’m still working on figuring that out, but i’m much more able to identify which decision is best for me at any given moment & following it. also, realizing that what’s best for me may not be best for anyone else, but that’s ok! that’s why it is MY decision. this practice has been the one that i’ve been working the most on…well, this and giving myself positive things. i’m attempting to reboot my mind, lol. i want to be a positive person that’s loving and helpful and fun and smart and all the great things, but with all the great, i believe i must improve my process of handling the bad. so i’m gonna practice that a lil more.
*smooches*