yallllllllllllllll! i did it! i gotta job, i’m able to participate & help myself again 😭

well writing that made me a lil sad that i, genuinely, felt like i couldn’t participate in my life. i couldn’t afford to. it was all so other worldly. almost like i was watching it on the netflix chile. i think i still feel like that, just detached.

i’m trying new and old ways of grounding so that i can be more present. i’m enjoying making lil lists of what i’ve been doing too soooooooo:

  • journaling

  • walking with friends

  • actually sharing deep emotions with tribe

  • yoga

  • vinyl records

  • sitting outside

  • meditation playlists

  • cleaning only so i can lay on my floor

  • watching something from disney

there’s prolly some others, but that’s all that’s in my head rn. it’s just a lot of living to see to what happens next & trying not to overthink the next breath.