mannnnnn. i’m sorry to myself & to y’all for not making myself do this sooner.i kinda just wanna catch yall up on my bs so i can get back to weekly writing & releasing.
i’ve been feeling lower than low since the year began, but it’s forced me to really live & look forward to the best moments. and i often try to rewrite my own experiences by saying, “nah, it’s not even that bad,” or (my fav) “i’ve gotten through worse, so this will be over soon.” (without actually doing any work to help the feels run its course.
BUT i’m here today. i’m alright for the most part. i’m rather exhausted to be rather mfn honest, but still trying to pour into others, while pouring into myself. growing myself in hella ways like my journals, podcast Human Blacks, my Black History Month giveaways, and my very first content day…with all of this goodness happening, that i would be much happier and lighthearted. i really wish i was feeling better. i like desperately want to! i’m moving and helping and even sitting on my couch more just to make sure i’m not overextending myself. idk, it aint working. imma still try tho, yall definitely know me.
i finished this abundance challenge that was a 21-day challenge that was difficult to commit to, but i’m so extremely thankful for the lessons and tools learned. i super surprised my mom for her 60th birthday with my sis & step dad. she loved it! she still has some trouble with the thought of relaxation, but i think i can help with that. kinda got another reminder of family growing pains…some that i thought died because they were previously worked through, but nope. i’m so thankful for therapy and God’s will because if it had not been for therapy, i definitely would NOT have been able to handle the situations that occurred. (i’m being cryptic because its sensitive, so let’s move on) OH! i visited A&T to recruit for my company. the event was titled “your purpose,” so yall know i was in there ready to learn & talk to the students about something that i’ve been struggling with for many years. i just feel it was an anointed conversation and i truly pray that i was able to help someone in the room. also, major praise break, i actually shared my blog and other entrepreneurial ventures with them!! in a big way for me since i usually keep them very separate, it felt good to mix them. i was able to share my full self & my mentor, through my job, was actually in the room…it brought us even closer to hear some other stuff that i had not yet shared with her. it was a major moment for me. plus i was in greensboro, nc….which is essentially my safe haven. my peaceful place that i will probably forever return to just to take that much needed breath.
let me see…what else is popping…oh, i’m dating & such. it’s been really fun and a little scary in a positive way. i think that’s all i have for yall right now and tbh, it feels good to just plainly write it all out and i can’t wait to be back on my weekly release.
*smooches*